..:::: Cz ::::.

yah begitulah ..
keputusan adalah keputusan, jika aja gw punya mesin waktu punya doraemon, mungkin gw bisa mundurin waktu untuk kembali ke waktu sebelumnya dan membetulkan semua kesalahan yang gw perbuat pada saat itu

benar kata orang banyak, jangan sia-siakan lah waktumu karena waktu tak akan kembali
dari situ gw bisa ngambil kesimpulan yap itu 100% benar(nenek2 nungging juga tau .. )

dan yang hari dan waktu yang telah berlalu hanyalah sebuah cerita lalu yang hanya bisa di kenang sebagai sebuah cerita yang telah dijalani, dan gw coba untuk mengambil sebuah hikmah dari itu, dan gw coba untuk menjadi orang yang lebih bijaksana di kemudian hari

and I hope so ..

thanks for beating me in to black and blue,
it made me phsically strong.
I wondered why you did that, can you give me a clue,
oh mom, please tell me, what have I done wrong.

Thanks for shouting me so loud,
It’s make me mentally sound,
I know about me you never felt proud,
when I needed you the most, you were not around.

Thanks for locking me up alone in a room,
It made me fearless of the dark,
Is this the way a child should be groomed?
you never took me for a walk in the park.

Thanks you’re never ending critism,
It made me more tolerant,
I can bravely face the world’s sarcasms,
towards me why were you always intolerant?

thanks for giving me more pain,
It made me respect love,
you did all this to me in return what did you gain?
No money can buy they say, it is mother’s love.

I want toys, No teddy bear,
I want pets, no bove,
All I want is, for me you should care,
No money can buy they say, it is mother’s love.

I love my mom ..

A memory from my early life
Haunts me that made me smile
The questions of a feeling I missed
And I   wished and hope to have felt.
I know there was love that in your heart
That every parent gave to their love child
The travels we have done to make survive
Were proofs of the emotions of parental love.
As days went on I felt sad to the scenes
I saw them doing but why we can’t seem
A little doubt and envy I started to get
In my young heart, it lived some quests .
Unanswered questions o f why we don’t do
The things I longed and wished from you
The feelings I can’t express, coz I don’t know
In my sadness I just consoled my doubts
That were different, were not the same in life.
And in my shallow sleep one night I felt
A warm breath that passed to my check
A whisper saying I love you my child
I knew it was you, I felt happy and glad.
The kisses and the hugs I thought never come
Now I know it’s not a showing you have done
Not the act that would please me if you do
What matters now is that I knew you do too.

pada satu hari w kluar dari dlm rumah
ke depan halaman rumah w ..
w duduk di bangku depan sambil melihat langit yang gelap
yang berhiaskan bintang-bintang
saat itu hanya satu yang w rasain, tenang banget, seolah nggk ada lagi beban di dalam pikiran

begitu banyak bintang di langit
dan mungkin nggk ada yang bisa menghitung banyaknya bintang yang ada di langit dan yang ada di alam semesta ini
terbesit di pikiran w, bintang mungkin bisa menjadi gambaran harapan-harapan w
banyak banget harapan yang ada di dalam diri w ..

w taw nggk semua harapan w akn mjd knyataan
tp w nggk salah kn klu w pnya harapan klu smua yg w inginkan mjd kenyataan … ??

hha .
mungkin emang lucu bagi sebagian orang
tp emg itu yg w rasain saat itu, namun saat itu w senang
w bisa rileks  bgd saat itu …